Sharing and Blessing

Conversation between me and the students

Below is the conversation between me,as a teacher and the students when i teach in my Alma Mater.My jaw drops when i talk with them but it was fun and entertaining to kill the boredom!lol..

LN=Lee Na, S=Students

S: Teacher,name and age pls?

LN: Guess and see.

S: 20 years old?

LN: hahahhahahaha.....i look younger than my age!!!!so happy

S: teacher,do u ve boyfriend or r u married?

LN: why u ask?

S: we want to introduce guys to u.

LN: i m not married.I m single didnt mean i m available..

S: Then why r u wearing finger ring?

LN: wearing ring doesnt indicate one's marital status, btw,it's fashion.lol....my gosh,simply crap!

S: Where do u stay? we go find u.

LN: no problem,come lah.

S: ( look happy)

S: teacher, example of endangered species? is jellyfish endangered?

LN: jellyfish is not. sigh..i m endangered teacher species,just kidding,lol....panda, badak sumatra, turtle, siberia tiger r endangered animals.

S: Do u cane students?

LN: Never ever. Caning is the most stupidest way to discipline students.so it's taboo for me

S: wah...

S: teacher,can teach and talk about sex education?

LN: my gosh...i dont know how's my facial expression at that time. ish....

S: Teacher,although we r not academic-driven class,and we r naughty, we r nice u know.

LN: yes,i understand.i like to teach naughty students.haha...guys like u bomb the class and raise the temperature! I enjoy but the teachers and headmaster r going to bomb me,lol....who cares!?phew....no pressure,we can still crush the classroom!

LN: INtroduce urself in a different way besides telling me ur name.

S: i like swimming and play badminton.

LN: wonderful and great.next time i date u for sports!yeah...:) They r not good in studying but they excel in sports! bravo!

besides talking and creating some relaxing atmosphere, i am able to make them reading,yahoo...because this class is teh weakest class,so.....

Girls and guys read the passage respestively, paragraph by paragraph. Surprisingly,guys read better and nicer than girls. Unexpectedly,the guys read out loud and clear, full with emotion somemore.i ve goosebump!hahaha....i cant stifle to laugh! so poetic..btw, the text is a poem-like message.

The guys r satisfied and enjoying my comments while the girls r blushing!hehe...and the teacher is happy as well.xD

What a day! we rock! smile to them and left. I am saved by the bell!!!

Floorball

Floorball,a new sports to many others.

It's a cool game!

It had made such  a great impact in my life.It creates a huge momentum to push me for extra miles.

Friendship, Team Spirit, Esprit de corp, Sportsmanship, Commitment, Physical and Mental fitness, bruises, blue black, twisted ankle, punishment, push-ups, blocking, drills, satisfaction, disappointment, victory and losing....Everything just happened in Floorball.

It's not just about winning, but more into learning and relearn what i never discover before.

Floorball vibrant my uni life..a lot. For a sports enthusiast like me, i truly enjoy it very much and hope that will be more to come in the future!!! For sure, i treasure the whole team very much. Unihawks,you guys are superb! I pay my salute and respect especially to one of our teamates and also our coach, Sarah for being so influential to me! She has indeed affected me in one way and another, and she is the younger coach i had ever have and met!! Thank you floorballers!

Happy Teacher's Day!!!!

There's a chinsese saying ' Teachers are the Engineer of the Souls'. I woulk like to wish all of the teachers Happy Teacher's Day and thank you for making an impact in my life. Some of my teachers are very special in a way that they conduct lessons. I can remember them!!!:P

Since i was a trainee teacher, i did receive some wishes from my students and friends. I feel strange, haha...This is my very first time i am wished Happy Teacher's Day!

Teacher's Day does not make any difference to me, but it reminds me about my students!:P Though they are not a bunch of lovable and adorable students, they are just dear to my heart!

4 Cekal and 4 Dinamik

4 CEKALers and 4 DINAMIKers are the earthly angels-in-disguise to me. Each and everyone of them is so uniquely created. Each has his very own personality and characteristic. BUT in general, they are little mischiefs! Btw, i can't deny that they have many hidden potentials yet to be discovered! This is my compliment to 4 Cekal and Dinamik. No matter how troublesome and 'nonsense' they are, I will still say they are dear to my heart and I treat them as my little younger brother, because our gap of age is not much different,:P somebody might not agree due to my physical age,lol...because i own an ageless heart!

I just would like to describe them one by one, just for my own memory.This is my personal opinion and it's according to my observation during my internship in Penang Free School.I hope they won't bombard and kill me la,no offense k.:P Here i start!!!

Safuan, Mohamed Azeim, Azrul --The most quietest in the class :P. i think safuan is the most quietest amonf all!

Adrian - he did impress me by his very neat handwriting, i just cant believe that it's a guy's handwriting when i saw it!!!it made my eyes open!!! :P

Izameer - i hardly see him in the class, always ponteng wan izit?i dont know who is he until the very end of my teaching week in 4 Cekal. :P

Radin - always confused him and his younger brother in 2Cekal, it's so happen i teach 2 RADINs..haha.i know he likes Nike also, and i grab his Nike photo! :P

Mahmood- He looks cool in the band, haha..always kena questioned by me in chemistry class because he's sitting at the back!

Tung Yiu Jho- this fellow is the true 'demon in disguise',during my 1st few weeks of teaching,he is so obedient and got the 'good boy look' BUT starts showing his true colors especially during my last week of teaching! He is the BULLy King after all, dare to bully the only jie jie in the class.thanks for the Apollos..ERM..i think he loves Apollo!:P

Shaun- MONITOR. Doraemon number one fanz.:P I wont forget he buy me food and bring it to the lab!thanks...i always misunderstood his hokkien words!shame on me...:P

Ong Ming wei- the most talkative in the class, talk so loud somemore, lol, but i think he is smart la, :p King of Curiosity!

Navnith- TALL and thin.He can share lame jokes!!!:P

Pang Zi Yang- He can read chinese!very rare in PFS because most of the chinese are bananas! erm...i think he is smart lah :P

Daniel- haih...dis fella..gossiping about me and Man wherever he goes.nonsense!they mess up my life in PFS..i m so innocent u know.:p

Quah Jit Shen-he is not as bad as the others, at least he didnt bully me. He is quite obedient and hand in his homework!

Stephen- paparazzi of the day! snap my photo without my notice!post it in his blog somemore..arh..but thanks for all the post he did, very nice and entertaining, make me laugh out loud!:D ..he perasan ady, so i ve to write additional comments to him.ok stephen, to prove i m not playing favorites to certain people,i will make sure urs one is the longest k..ahem...dis fella also very nakal, i m cheated by his look, thought tat he is a very obedient child,wont bully people, mana tau he can bully people non-verbally. go and read his blog to find out why i said so lah..

i said u guys are macho and handsome but stephen said 4 CEKALers are nerd nerd!!!! lol...what say u, 4Cekal? u agree with me or Stephen? lol...

Jagath- i thought he is queit but actually not.i get to know him better after i left PFS.Can write poem and that reveal his secret and hidden potentials. Thanks for sharing ur story with me.

Shiva- i didnt talk to him much in the class, my regrets!but he seems very quiet also.

Muiz- the most polite student in the class.He is very nice.Ohya, thank you for ur little gift as a farewell remembrance on my last day in school, appreciate u loads!

Rexy- greet me all the time when he meet me in the school :)he is very teachable and nice, i think:p

Ooi Kok Hin- he has a very teachabe heart, i can see the hard work he invests in everything.bravo!

Thanga- i remember the 1st time i get to know him as Asistant Monitor and since that i remember his name. He always try his best to complete his work :P keep it up!

Ong Siew Chai- forever see him online and play games! CAN still chat with him in MSN at late night. The night is forever young for him!

Tan Siew Hung- not much interaction between us, but i think i sure kena bullied by him if i teach him for longer time!

Vimaleswara- if i m not mistaken, he is the 1st person i talked to in 4 Cekal on my 1st day entering the class.:p

Arif and Nur Arif- arh..their names confused me lah..i have difficulty to differenciate between them! i hope i match their respective names to the correct person right now, but not 100% sure.

Azharul- he like to pose for photo and always ask me to email the photos to him, hahha..but until now, i still dont know why they called him BLUE! can anyone tell me why ar?

Hariharasudan- they said he always ponteng but i dont know true or not. erm..seldom see him appear in my class!:P i still remember how he hang the chair onto the window!!!haihs...headache :p

Imran- I dont know why each time i look at him, he gives me the shy look!hahaha...that's why i told him he is shy!but he is a very nice student, very well-behaved :p, wont make noise and read newspapers when i relief the class.

Iqram- i used to be blurred again and again, cant differenciate Iqram and imran in the beginning! Iqram wears glasses wan!!! hehe..

Asri- erm..one good thing i would like to comment on him , he is very serious in conducting experiment, impressed by the moment he is so into it!i think he made me headache also lah :P

Gouthaam- not bad ..at least not problematic and didnt bully me, haha..may be he didnt tunjuk belang!

Seow Wei Wen- he is very quiet also, i should have talk to him more!:p Very well-behaved.i really appreciate this type of student!!!:p

Syafiq- i almost lost count of him..i try very hard to think who's him!:pi think i get his picture in mind...(he is fr 4 Cekal rite?)ooppsss...sorry if i m mistaken. :P

These are the wonderful people i met during my teaching practical. They always come across my mind now and then. I m pretty glad that they have left their marks in my life journey! Just would like to say that they are incredible and unbelievable. You guys indeed have made such a great impact in my life!!!

Teaching u guys is a bittersweet experience but knowing u guys is another story to tell. Praise the Lord for this enriching life lesson i have learned.I believe that nothing happens by chance. God is sovereignty and everthing is good in Him. Thank God for all the little blessings i have received.

p/s: will write for 4 DINAMIKers as well :P

4 Dinamik

Amirul Hazeeq – Quiet and hardworking. He is my favorite student but he is transferred to another school

Chong Kam Zhern- Monitor. Quite cute, haha

Koh Cheang Huat – this fella is troublemaker! So naughty especially in the lab. I really shocked when he played with the fire extinguisher in the lab!!!! You want to extinct and suffocate the whole class izit?! BTW, I believe that he can be taught wan, :P, his curiosity brings disaster and damage!!! Pls apply it in a correct way k.

Kumar – This fella lagi terrible. Undying spirit of mischief! Always annoy me and his sweetheart playfully!! I wont forget how he treat me especially on my final last Wednesday in the lab. U know what he did? He  grab my bag and scarf and ran away!!! Btw, I like his athletic spirit! He was cool in the 4x400m on the Sports Day! He charged to the max fr the last to the second placing, wow!

Jerome Hansel Anthony & Joshua John Samuel– What a name!:P Both of them are very well behaved !

Lim Meng Jiang – I thought he is very ‘good boy’, I saw his belang finally and he also dare to bully me. Always annoy me and reveal my age! U know how he ‘check’ my age? He go and ask another teacher how old I am. wad la u! why u guys like to guess ppl’s age!!!!!!!!!!!

Chittesh – another naughty boy in 4 Dinamik. Never pass up his homework to me, I know u r smart but u still have to fulfill the requirement! :P

Lam Yan Wei & Neoh Siaw Jin- at least they didn’t make me headache!!haha…

Vincent- he looks cute!!lol..ohya, thank u for ur email, it’s funny  and made me  laugh out loud!!!!

Lee Jeong Mark- when I first teach him in 4 Dinamik, I am impressed by him, but appearance is deceptive! He is not as ‘good boy’ as I think, lol…

Jonathan Lim- Always sit in front but never copy notes wan, haha..but he is very nice lah.

Pavithren- entertain me by his magic tricks..not bad, can kill the boredom in the class! :P

Redzuan and Narinder – not knowing them that well, hmmm..i think they are quite OK lah..:P

Yogeash – I always tell him he got the gangster-look! Lol..

Azhar Husaini – rather quiet. I dun talk much to him…aiks

Azman – always forget his name when I want to call him! Haih…I m very bad in remembering names lah..

Syed Abdullah and Khairil  - both of them are the monster of the class. Sometimes I feel like want to bomb them, :P they are super noisy and trouble maker in the class! Can talk so loud even during the test, BIG sigh, I also don’t know how to control them! One thing I don’t understand is, why all the noisy students like to sit in front of my class! So much noise pollution and I become pekak ady lah..:P

Syamim – haha…I always tell him he got very nice eyes ! Thank u so much for the letter u wrote for me, very touched by it and of course, thanks for

ur

compliment! Now everyone knows he has very nice eyes, lol…

Aznil- He is very nice, obedient and teachable, appreciate him loads.

Azwan – the only thing I can talk with him is about sports, hhaha…coz he is sofbol player and I was sofbol player also, this is the common topic we have in our conversation!

Shah Razin – small size :P well behaved.

Riyasi and Syazani – honestly, I still cant identify them. I always confused two of them, until now! :P my problem….

Keshav- someone’s sweetheart in 4 Dinamik, handsome and talented, lol..no wonder Kumar…..

Chasith- he is thai?? He can talk a lot of things with u!!!!

Nasruddin – very quiet also. :P

                             

haha...thanks to Stephen the paparazzi, for these photos, damn funny!

excellent conversation

God : Hello. Did you call me?
Me: Called you? No.. Who is this ?

God : This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.
Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in
the midst of something.

God : What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.
Me: Don't know. But I can't find free time. Life has become hectic. It's
rush hour all the time.

God : Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results.
Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.

Me: I understand. But I still can't figure out. By the way, I was not
expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.

God : Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some
clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.

Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?
God : Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it
complicated.

Me: why are we then constantly unhappy?
God : Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday.You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.

Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?
God : Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.

Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty. .
God : Pain is inevitable able, but suffering is optional.

Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?
God : Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer. With that
experience their life become better not bitter.

Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?
God : Yes. In every terms, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the
test first and the lessons afterwards.

Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can't we be free
from problems?
God : Problems are Purposeful R oadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons
(to) Enhance Mental S trength. Inner strength comes from struggle and
endurance, not when you are free from problems.

Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading..
God : If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look
inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes
provide sight. Heart provides insight.

Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?
God : Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you road ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.


Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?
God : Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.

Me: What surprises you about people?
God : When they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they prosper, they never ask "Why me". Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.

Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I can't get the answer.
God : Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be.
Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not
merely a process of discovery but a process of co-creation. You are my co-creator.

Me: How can I get the best out of life?
God : Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.
God : There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.

Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat.
God : Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts
and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to
resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live. "Life is not
measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that took our breath away!

Penang Free School

This blog is specially written to my students in Penang Free School  during my teaching practical in Free School.After all, it was a wonderful enriching experience. It was a bittersweet experience and everything just happened between us.

I still remember vividly my first reaction when i get to know that i got PFS to fulfil my 15 weeks of teaching practical!!! First of all, it's a boy school and one of the top school in Penang.Time flies and God just bring it to pass. Everything right from the beginning to the very end is so fresh and so yesterday.

4 Cekal, 4 Dinamik and 2 Cekal were the classes i taught in PFS. The students were angels and demons to me at the same time! I can say that teaching them is not the most diffucult thing to do, but the last day of teaching itself was a very hard-letting go moment for me to accept.

I hate the feeling of saying farewell when i have to accept it reluctanty.By the time we are getting closer and acquaintant to each other but we have to leave each other at the same time!!!

It's my first teaching experience and i treasure it very much. The students are dear to my heart and they always  spice up my teaching life. No matter how mischievous and noisy they are, i will never ever scold them because i dont like to embarass my students instead i think i should do it another way. Scolding students is a taboo for me to educate students and i find it the most stupid and uneffective way of disciplining the students.

Bringing out the fragrance of a teacher and making a positive impact is the heart of learning and teaching. I really appreciate and treasure the interaction with my students!!!

To teach is to learn. I am not just teaching the students but I am learning from them as well. I am not the academic-driven person so what i emphasize and expect from the students is not acedemic excellent, but excel in every aspect of their life. EQ and IQ has to work together and they compliment each other in order to perform well. It is your attitude not your aptitude that determines your altitude. I learned much from this saying during floorball training ' it doesn't matter you try and try and try and fail, but it does matter when u try and fail, and you fail to try again'. It's very true.

I believe that the students are very unique and teachable. Every student has their own learning style and hidden potential yet to discover, either by themselves or being told. My principle in teaching is, never ever look down or discourage the students until they are hurt or demotivated.It's the most stupid thing to do as a teacher.

To my point of view,an ideal teacher to me is to be able to interact with the students and deliver knowledge effectively at the same time. For me, a teacher should be relational and befriend with the students as well, but have to conduct it wisely. I am still learning how to achieve that.

My first teaching experience in Penang Free School did impact me a lot. It's hard to explain the feeling by mere words.4 Cekal, 4 Dinamik and 2 Cekal did influence me significantly. They are angels in disguised to brighten up my day, at the same time, they are demons that really disturb me with their nonsense!Anyway, everything is good in God's hand. He sees me through the seasons and at the end, i will end up praising Him for His faithfulness.Thank you Lord for giving me the best according to Your perfect timing. I thank God for all the people that cross my life journey, leaving  marks in the secret place called HEART.

PKA

I am touched as i read the current issues in PKA newsletter.(PKA stands for Persaudaraan Kristian Agape for those who dont know but curious about it). I dont know why i got such complicated feeling and everything written inside by the PKAians especially the graduating brothers and sisters speaks to my heart. I like their sharing and how God intervenes in their life.  People with different personalities have different styles of writing and sharing yet all have one common thing, GOD's love. No matter how far they relate their lives, it ends up with GOD. Everything is about Him. I couldnt say  that i enjoy reading the newsletters because it stirs up my inner feeling. I couldnt explain the feeling. I didnt feel like crying, I didnt feel like laughing, I didnt feel sad, heavy-hearted...It just mess up my feeling .So I call it complicated. It creates ripples in the ocean of my heart. People use metaphor to say that one's heart is bleeding, i would rather say that it is more like the heart is burdened with loads of hiddden pressure.

PKA means a lot for me in my 3rd year. As i recall the time during my walk with God,

During my 1st year, God is my comfort.

I was unfaithful but Gos is faithful.

During my 2nd year, God is the potter and i am the clay

He shapes and moulds me.

During my 3rd year, God is my teacher.

I exprienced unwillingness, He disciplines me for good.

I experienced the bitterness

but taste His sweetness

I experienced sufferings

but He turns them into blessings

I experienced discouragement

He encourages me

I experienced weakness

He strengthen me

For so many times i try to run away

but He never forsake me

I said :God, I cant do all these

He said: my grace is sufficient for you

In my final year to come, I hope I can say: God is my lover

Teach me how to love You so that i can love others..

During the reflection session in PKA, I wrote down the words as above as my personal reflection.

On that day itself was PKA farewell night. All my batchmates are graduating this semester. When i looked at the presentation by the 1st years'( Find Us Faithful mime"), i was brought back to the memory lane of my 1st year. It reflects the same when i was presenting the Find Us Faithful mime. Everything was so "yesterday". The memory is so fresh in my mind. I can vividly remember what the seniors wore and all the presentations they had sincerely performed.

Here's the lyrics for the mime, Find Us Faithful.

We're pilgrims on the journey on the narrow road

and those who've gone before us line the way

cheering on the faithful encouraging the weary

their lives a stirring testament

to God's sustaining grace

surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses

let us run the race not only for the prize

but as those who've gone before us

let us leave to those behind us

the heritage of faithfulness

passed on through godly lives

oh may all who come behind us find us faithful

may the fire of our devotion light their way

may the footprints that we leave

lead them to believe

and the lives we live

inspire them to obey

oh may all who come behind us find us faithful...

after all our hopes and dreams have come and gone

and our children sift through all we've left behind

may the clues they discover

and the memories they uncover

become the light that leads them

to the road we each must find...

Every time I read this, i got different observation and interpretation. 1st year's feeling towards this mime is different from 2nd year and so with 3rd year. How about my final year?/hmm.. I am very sure it will be different from all the previous years.

PKA farewell night is just different and meaningful from other course nights. It's is so different not because we have more fun, not because we are so glamorous in our dinner dress, not because of the appetising buffet we had, not because of the grade and status of the hotel, not the earhtly values i can say. It's the Christ -centered fellowship that brought us together to celebrate. God made us to be relational. The bible says two are better than one. This is the significance of friends. Friends are truly a great blessing from our father in heaven. They are angels sent by God to bless us and journey on with us on the winding road. I have read this description about freinds before: Friends should be mathematical, they add  the blessing, substract the burden, multiply the joy and divide the sorrow, calculate the need in your heart.This is what we call genuine fellowship in Christ. The bible in 1 Corinthians says: if one part of the body suffers, every part suffers; if one part is honored, every part rejoices with it.

Another personal encouter. As i take the first step to commit myself as assistant cell group in PKA, in the midst of uncertainties and lots of overanticipation, i know that i keep enduring. Sometimes i have to admit that there are unwillingness to serve, fear to serve, lacking faith to serve, pressurized to serve or etc..I have to be prayerful about it. I want to serve with a willing spirit and enjoy my servanthood!!! When i have been approached to become cell group leader, i started to struggle. I felt like i was holding back something. I was influenced by the power of evil to quit yet at the same time I was convicted to serve God faithfully. Am i afraid of commitment? Am i fearing man or God? Am i doing it out of love? Am i worthy or qualified as potential leader? Am i....ar..so many questions like flaming arrows that i cant take it anymore.

BUT, i believe that God knows me better than i do. He knows my capasity. He stretched me but I am not crushed. He would not burden us beyond our ability to bear. If God want to bless, he will not add suffering to it. For the thanks giving, i thank God for what He has done for me. I thank God for all His blessings though i dont realise sometimes. I have gone through the best spiritual discipline that nourished me from the inside out. I need Him all the time, the time when i pray, the time when i eat, the time when i study, the time when i am in trouble, the time when i am happy,sad,angry,disappointed..the time when i fellowship, the time when i serve Him, the time when i am with my non believer friends and housemates, the time when i have fun, the time when i am lost, the time....wow...see, God has been part of my life! My prayer will be: remain faithful to Him, build  stronger and closer relationship with Him, grow to be more Christ like, reflect His glroy, show His love to others, eliminate my hidden sins( selfish, anger...) and i want to be a sincere,obedient and faithful daughter of God!

A Time for Everything

I like Ecclesiastes 3 that says:

There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven:

a time to be born and a time to die,

a time to plant and a time to uproot,

a time to kill and a time to heal,

a time to tear down and a time to build,

a time to weep and a time to laugh,

a time to mourn and a time to dance,

a time to scatter and a time to gather them,

a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

a time to search and a time to give up,

a time to keep and a time to throw away,

a time to tear and a time to mend,

a time to be silent and a time to speak,

a time to love and a time to hate,

a time for war and a time for peace.

I have experienced busyness during this semester. This is the first time i "declare" to myself that i am busy!!The concrete evidence to prove this is my sleeping hour is getting less. Plus, I always rush to finish my assignmnet and study at last minute when the tests are approaching near. sigh...could it be my time management? what's my top priority as a uni student? mm..i have to figure it out. One word to descibe the current semester: T.I.R.E.D. I m tired physically and mentally. I think i need some nourishment to my body :P I m longing for jacuzzi, massage,spa, sauna...haha..i think i need body masssage because i always injure my back and waist and  twisted my ankle when i practiced. mm...could it be ageing sign? i am getting older! oh no..:P

ANYWAY...i will leave this semester with no regrets:) I live it to the fullest! This semester will be ending soon and i am sure i will miss it a lot.. besides the assignments and lab reports that are nudging me throughout the semester, i am also engaged with other activities. Cell Groups, Church, PKA, SUKAD/PETAS, etc. A lot of meetings and workshops are beckoning me and i dont want to miss all the opportunities given to me. I have been stretched and stretched, challenged and disciplined. For sure, this process is not pleasant but worth it. Hardship is the perferct mirror. It reflects who we are,what we do, how we cope. erm..  Many things come across my mind, i just couldnt put it into words systematically because my mind mess up everything. I will continue later on :P

From,

LeeNa(with sleepy eyes)

The reason

It has been long time I didnt update my friendster...I have been thinking about the purpose driven life recently especially  during my campus life. I hope that it will be a purposeful semester in my third year study as a campus student. As I have to fulfill many tasks and carry my responsible as a varsity student and a child of God.

There wil be loads of assignments this semester, may it be course-related assignments given by the lecturer or any task and lesson God want me to do in CGs. I really hope that I can be a blessing to others...

Christmas today...I have a blessed and good time at church this morning. The carols are soooo nice and meaningful, and the performances are touching the hearts of many. From what I have observed ( I am quite observant :P), people from different background, religion, race, countries celebrate Christmas by their own ways. Gift exchange is the most common one, christmas dinner (turkey), countdown with strangers in santa attire, color spray and fireworks)....These are the ' big picture' of Christmas you might think! But all these started because of Jesus. The idea of gift come from God and he is the source of every beginning..

I want to thank those who bless me with  lovely christmas gifts. Although it is small, I enjoy unwrapping the presents and the pretty surprise. I hope that you all will be blessed by the christmas gift I gave to you guys. Wishing you a merry christmas and all pleasures of the season!!! As the carols go:

"Hark the herald angels sing, glory to the new born king..."

"Joy to the world the Lord is come let earth receive her King..."

"....We are the reason that He gave His life..."

" feliz navidad....we wanna wish you a merry christmas from the bottom of our hearts..."

Dejavu

Ever come across times when you are stumbled onto an online service that connects classmates via the Internet..ever come across times when you had an unexplainable desire to find out about these certain people..What were my memories of them? What would they look like now? What were they doing for a living? What had become of them? Where were they in relation to their belief in God?I grew up with these people. I have no idea who these people are now,just seeing their names was like attending a reunion without really being there. I dont know why I'm in such a remisniscent mood.

At 22,I am still rather frivolous and need to grow up.I am bending under a weight of uncertainties. Sometimes a dreadful fear comes over me that I'm misanthropes.:p Ignore it, my thought may wander far and dragged to the impossible. Sometimes I have an awful habit of writing impulsively when i first think things and then posting it beyond recall. But if sometimes thoughtless and ungrateful, I never mean it.

The Bible teaches us that we are all wired for relationships.All this just confirms that God made us for relationships – relationships with him and with each other. When you think of it, there’s nothing in life more important than relationships.They are the one tangible connection we have to eternity. Some of them – I hope all of them – I will see in heaven. I remember what the bible says, if one soul is saved, the heaven rejoice!!!

Here is the song I like. I will end here with this song. Enjoy and be blessed when you read through it.

- Testify To Love Lyrics

Verse 1
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All the colors of the rainbow
All of voices of the wind
Every dream that reaches out
That reaches out to find where love begins

Every word of every story
Every star in every sky
Every corner of creation lives to testify

Chorus
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For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silences
when words are not enough

With every breath I take
I will give thanks to God above
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love

Verse 2
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From the mountains to the valleys
From the rivers to the sea
Every hand that reaches out
Every hand that reaches out to offer peace

Every simple act of mercy
Every step to kingdom come
All the Hope in every heart
will speak what love has done